oh my god it’s june i was supposed to buy my europe ticket like um a month ago
my mom knows that i can’t decide on anything in my life ever so she is giving me exactly 24 hours to decide if i want to go to berlin and milan like i originally planned or if i just want to go home. and since i am maybe the worst in the world at making decisions here’s some pros and cons
pros of NY: home, i guess nyc is a good place to be in the grand scheme of things, cats, nice scenery for my emo drives late at night, my brother might be home, no responsibilities but sleep
cons: my mom isn’t even home the whole time i’m there, running into people i knew in high school when i’m just trying to buy my orange juice at the supermarket seems gross, i will probably have to politely spend time with my dad’s new girlfriend, i will probably feel really bad because i will probably feel like i’m wasting my time since i never have break anyway and i already spent way too much time at home when i took the fall quarter off from school oh my god even thinking about this is making me exhausted
pros of berlin and milan: ummmmm everything? travelling by myself???????????? speaking german with german people???????????????? staying in a feminist commune while i’m in berlin because my mom knows weird people and they invited me??????????? THE ENTIRE COUNTRY OF ITALY???????????? screwing the whole plan and going to paris via train??????????????????????? duh
cons of berlin and milan: i might die or get kidnapped but i live in downtown los angeles so i guess that could happen every day of my life now that i think about it. also will probably run out of money really quickly. and i won’t get to see my friends from home but the people i really care about are visiting me in LA over the summer anyway so it’s ok??? also if i don’t go everyone will tell me i’m dumb for not going
yeah writing this out helped i think!!!!!!!!! see u in europe!!!!!!!!!!!!!
